Sweet success.

Published by Kellz

I am one of those people that God put through excutiating trails, tests, & trauma that would have destroyed 80% of humans, but I still got back up , dusted off my skirt, and keep moving forward. I have been fortunate to be one of those people that always wanted more, and thrived in scenarios that most never dare to set foot in. Three months ago I had a conversation with my higher power about my path moving forward on earth, and the message was loud & clear. Service to others, to show them collaborated solutions, a unique perspective, and ideas to implement things in their lives that positivity impacts their community, family, and others they pass knowledge too. Due to the conflicts, and successes I have endured I will address the following as I see fit and will also look at trending topics on the internet that I feel are not represented in a away that benefits the masses. So while my topics may not be specific I will touch ones that will effect a variety of individuals. . You may ask where does a middle aged women have these types of qualifications, and my response.............real life experience and full blow chaous personally, mentally, emotionally, professionally and spiritually. I the following areas that have impacted me positively/negatively I learned crutial knowledge out of each experience. Implemented this best practices to dig myself out of a dark place or to elevate my success, & see errors in things we are preaching to the younger generation which if not addressed worldwide will continue cycles that are not optimal for our species to thrive in, Basically I want my ability to see both sides of the fence plus the imaginary 3rd side, to be gifted to others & is an edge to understand how everything impacts everyone, and how solutions can be derived to benefit all. The following are reasons I felt this is my service aspect to others & where I feel I got the vast knowledge I have been gifted with: 1.) ChildHood Trauma - Abandonment from both parents - Mental, Emotional/Physical/Spiritual/Sexual abuse - Narrcasstic Abuse from family members - Never received help for depression / trauma related illness - Rebellious/Permicuous as a teenager in early teens due to abuse - Trauma from court proceedings due to sexual abuse - unique individual bullied by other kids from start to end of school - Sent to a Catholic residential school due to uncontrolable behavior - Hopsilized with mental health issues & suicide attempts many times in high school & put on heavy duty antipsychotic medications - gifted child but caused extreme perfectionism & longing for acceptance - Low self worth, and self esteem - Family was old school & we never discussed out problems or issues - Alcohol & Drug Abuse as early as 13 Early Adult 1.) Has children at a very young age of 17 raised three children, two of my own & my younger half sibling - Narrcastici abuse from my spouse which in those days we didnt know what it was, I just knew it wasnt right. - Drug & alcohol abuse - Very little help (Paid all the bills, and was left to also be the everything as a feminine of the household) - Domestic Abuse abuse & fighting - No role model for parenting - Alienated from friends & family - Grew up rapidly & was the responsible adult for 5 people. - Lost all connection with myself as I spend 20 years catering to everyone else in my life, ignoring my own needs - People pleasing, and held back as I didn't like confrontation with a person who you couldn't fight with Career - Never went to University - Used a strong go getting attitude to land some key opportunities that set the stage for training, and future opportunities at larger firms. - Worked in Sales, Sale Couching, Product Marketing, Sales Management, IT Consultation, and Leadership roles with 2 of the largest companies in the world Xerox, and American Express. - Broke company records for targets - Liked & respected by all - 10% female account managers so very male dominated & competitve - Was a non traditional hire & exceptions made due to no post secondary education so everything I had to learn I did through company courses, mentorship, videos & books in my spare time. - Nominated for Saskatchewan's Top 40 under 40, three years in a row. - Won many awards in my sales & sales management career & still hold the record of the biggest commission cheque ever received by an account manager - Was a mom & juggled my hard working professional life & being there for my kids - Travelled all over the world, & met many influential people throughout my travels - Have vice presidents at companies like IBM, Xerox, HP, Microsoft, Oracle, ect who know me personally & would give me glowing reviews for the performance & dedication I put into my roles - Mentor for hundreds of employees, - Was an innovater always thinking outside the box - Motivated many women to follow their dreams, be a BOSS Bitch & realize school does not account to on the job experience, & having a attitude of daily learning, & constant self improvement - Opened up my own tech company in 2013, which I raised 400 K in cashflow in less than 7 days, & started each aspect of the business by scratch. Everything I did I had to learn on my own, & was named Agency of the Year the 1st year of ownership, and presidents club winner due to my achievements Personal Tragedy - 2017 the company was almost bankrupt due to mismanagement of funds buy a partner in the company - Personal family, friends involved & various lies & trickery discovered that was incomprehensible. Caused a debt to the federal government which was so large, that they seized everything & were very adamant on resolution or face criminal charges - In 90 days went from not knowing anything was wrong, to losing my life's work (company), home, vehicles, family,& many friends - Suffered through extreme depression, mental health issues, PTSD, & trust issues due to the betrayal of family & friends - Smear Campaign was directly created on me which caused many people to believe rumours & discard me as a friend - Sold my company, for a quarter of what it was worth, & all funds were given to CRA - Personal destruction by ex family that was bitter over divorce, & manipulation tactics used to keep many person relationships away from me. Caused many altercations & II felt backing away silently was the only way peace could be achieved. - Started using alcohol & drugs to levels that were obsene as I didn't have the physical ability to take my life, but I felt I could use drugs at extreme levels & eventually it would happen. - Stress overcame my mental state, lost all confidence, thinking abilities & ability to work effectively. - Extreme shame as one of the partners was a close family friend who lost thousands & it ruined a family relationship that I really cared about. - Got involved in the sex industry due to not being able to sell company immediately 7 not having the funds to support myself. Whem my addiction got out of hand I spiraled into a dark life, that was not in my character. = Stared associating with a variety of characters involved in violence, drugs, crime, & put myself in chaotic situations & was involved in these activities - My health mentally, emotionally, physically deteriorated to a point where I was hospitalized many times, had 13 seizures & over dosed where I was not breathing for longer than 3 min, & was brought back to life buy paramedics. - Lost my homes, all my belongings, vehicles, & had individuals try & take my life - Finally hit rock bottom was living in a drug house, in full blown psychosis, where I was hallucinating, & reacting to things I thought i was experiencing. - Experienced death very frequently with saving many people using narcan shots during over doses, & lost many friends over the 5 year span - Was sent to prison in 2020 for a year, & even though it was not ideal if I wasn't sent I would have died. - Attended a drug treatment facility where I learned to heal trauma I never dealt with - Ups & downs after leaving treatment dealing with the legal system to finalize my incarceratiom, & most of my family support had given up on me. My reintegration into society was a lonely one! Had to learn hard lessons & be strong for my self. - My confidence, self image & respect to myself was non existent - This all happened during Covid which was a weird time in itself Present - Im doing well, & slowing making plans to get back into business type opportunities - Humbled to say the least - Got an understanding of why people in poverty don't get out & how our justice & prison systems need revamping to actually be rehabilitation centres not a set up for failure & reoffending - Learned who I was as a person - Gained an extreme understanding of spirituality, learned about all religions, & how my spirituality directly reflected my mental, emotional & physical needs - Educated my self in areas of business, legal, digital marketing & spiritual coaching - Learned boundaries, people pleasing symptoms, forgiveness, meditation, understanding, & now I do not judge others for how they choose to live or do things - Started a Tik Tok account where i discussed issues around prison, & addiction received a heathy following growing daily. - Gained a mentality of gratitude, & positivity that I did not have before. - Learned about my shadow self, emotions as a compass, & how my to deal with my feelings - Got my self confidence back, & self worth - Have a level of understanding of things that I can articulate in a manor that everyone would understand. - Want to share the little successes moving forward, & learn new skills that I transfer onto others So as you can see I have lived a life that most never live in 80 years, and I have looked at every obstacle as a opportunity, & learned lessons that I feel I can pass onto others so the same mistakes don't need to be made by others. As you can tell I'm open about my experiences, struggles, successes & failures as where I went wrong was being so stubborn that i felt strong people didn't need help, & that I could handle it all on my shoulders and ultimately this is why I crashed into the Rock Bottom Abiss, but like the phoenix I have risen & grateful that I have been given the opportunity to keep moving forward! I know that in two years Im gonna look back on all these experiences & understand that all of it was for a reason. Preparing me for levels of success that I never could imagine! Don't ever give up, I know I wanted to many times but I'm here for a reason & I'm looking forward to the success & wins moving forward! View more posts